I will remember the works of the LORD: surely I will remember thy wonders of old. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds. Psalm 77:11-12
This may sound like life coaching but I am sharing it from the Biblical perspective.
There are promises and miracles waiting for you on the other side IF you take that step you SAID to YOURSELF you will take.
Learn from a woman with issues of blood as well four leprous men in OT.
You will be blessed.